Am I making the right decisions at the moment? Am I happier right now than I would be when I am in the future that I have envisioned for myself a long time ago?
Sometimes I just want to let everything go because doing so would be much easier at this stage of my life. But, I know that what I have right now-her, them, and everything else-is truly special. Especially her. She is something else. So loving, caring, and selfless. Me? Not so much I seem to think. I sometimes feel guilty that I get to call her mine; she says that she is lucky to have me, but I’m the one who really has to question whether I deserve to have someone like her by my side.
Questions never leave my mind. I’m a natural-born ‘worry-er’. I am happy with my life, but I always seem to be thinking about those small things that could potentially go wrong. I don’t know why I think about these things. 90% of what I worry about never actually happen. The funny thing is, people call me an optimist. I guess I am just a pessimist with a clever facade. I don’t know what I’ll do in the next few months-what decisions I’ll make and who and what I’ll choose to keep around in my life. I just hope that if I do make foolish choices during that time(because I’m still young and stupid), I won’t lose the people and things after I realize that they mattered to me more than I thought they did.
A bit late, but better later than never!
1) I am lucky enough to have a smartphone.
2) I pay pretty much next-to-nothing for college.
3) Neutrogena lotion (oil-free yeah!!!)
4) House music is amaaaaazing. And I listen to it every day!
5) I have access to food 24/7.